ALWAYS RETURNING ✨
a bts update + video practice + playlist + equinox Freewrite ritual this Thursday? 🍃
Welcome brilliant being. Hope you’re holding tight, or loose, or somewhere in-between with ease. Wanted to offer you a space to land which i hope might be useful at this time.
✨There’s an audio version of this post with additional (possibly ‘animal’ ) sound effects, via the disco curtain portal below! ✨
Darlings! Can you believe? It’s me! here! Finally, after so much umm-ing and ahh-ing (and an archive of draft posts poised to send you) i’m taking the plunge to dedicate space to a little container for us on here, which i hope offers a little more intimacy to connect, as well as freedom and expansion in the ways i can share more with you. Imagine it, if you will, you entering this portal via a disco curtain, flapping in the soft breeze…
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So, so much has happened in these years (for all of us, i have absolutely no doubt), and i’ve been re-emerging from my shell grotto…🐚✨
And as always, if you know anything about me, i speak of this often, this process of emergence starts from myself. It’s an unmasking of sorts, before rippling outward. I’m so sorry I’ve not been ‘here’ or seemingly so ‘visible’ as i’ve been going through it. You’ve been with me, in my heart, in this time…How are you? I’d really love to hear from you…so please comment below in our private chat or feel welcome to reply!
Real talk?
It’s been lonely, to be honest.
My life has turned upside down and inside out
But still trying to be here. Present. With it all.
A-recent-but-not-so-recent diagnosis has meant it’s changed everything but nothing at all about who I am…
And it’s taken time to really be here with it.
To process….where possible.
Lots of things have helped on the journey. My practices of course, but needing to rebuild myself from the inside out has been vital. Does that sound dramatic?
I guess it has been…but it’s also been affirming in so many ways… remembering who I am… taking my own guidance!
I’ll share more soon (because this isn’t meant to be cryptic) and I’ve made you lots of offerings based on things I’ve found helpful along the way, you know, when you’re re-emerging into a world that feels completely different, or perhaps you feel different, you feel…more you… ok i’m waffling now but, i’d like to get to the nitty-gritty because I have news and treats for you, dear dear hearts!
📹 New video practice + playlist 🎶
I’d like to offer a gift from my heart, as a gesture of my massive gratitude to you being here! In the moments when things have been so challenging, what’s really kept me going is ever-exploring my ‘purpose’, and as always, it’s been the engine for the things I’ve been making behind the scenes.
I’ve been making lots of practices and resources for the community, and wanted to share one with you sweet beans, which was my first ‘victory’ with some video tech that I’ve been trying to make work for at least 18 months but to be honest, since before the pandemic hehe i’m kind of laughing and also whimpering in equal measure. So hope the quality is even better than before (ever-working-on-it). I recorded it last month with no less than three telephone interruptions during the recording plus text messages hehe, laughing again cause I now know airplane mode is my friend! it’s usually my default mode, many of you know this, but for some reason, I needed to re-learn this again, cue the dolphin meme:
The 36-minute movement practice is called Always Returning -named thanks Brian Eno, and also thanks to the practice itself, which has really held me - doesn’t it always? It’s in honour of creating space to come back to ourselves, no matter how rocky waves the have been. It’s certainly been a gift to me, and I hope that this practice might offer you a place to land too. There’s an accompanying Spotify playlist, (obviously!) so feel welcome to simply dive into that if you feel like it! I hope it gives you equal vibes for you to take up space in being all that you are.
🍃 Freewrite this Thursday 22nd September, interested?
I’ve been thinking for some time and have that sacral grunt (manifesting generators in the house, do you feel me?) and am planning to hold space for a gathering for the Equinox (autumn in the northern hemisphere, spring in the southern hemisphere), this transitional point as we move from one season and welcome in the next and the days and night are of equal length.
Whether you’re in the northern or southern hemisphere, or you’re my people near the equator and have a very different seasonal system (shoutout to my Caribbean bredrins out there), i wanted to make and hold space for us to honour the season, and that doesn’t have to be the ‘physical’ season we’re in. I thought it could be nice to have a ritual in community, but would love to hear what you think, is it something you’d dig?
Logistically: I was thinking of a 30 minute Zoom meetup, with a little Freewrite ritual followed by a check in and feel welcome to bring tea / candle or other ritual aid / pets to honour the seasonal shift (cause she is the moment, dahling!)
In case you haven’t been to one of my Freewrites and want an idea of what it entails, we tend to ‘check in’, followed by a little mindful ‘grounding’ moment to begin, so think of very simple, gentle, cosy vibes, from your chair or bed or the floor, then i’ll offer a timed prompt offering, there might be more than one, short and sweet, which you can take or leave, you’re welcome to go with your own Freewrite flow, before we reconvene to check in and out.
What say you? Are you up for it?
Let me know if it sounds interesting by meeting me in the comments with your thoughts. Please feel very welcome to make suggestions for your preferred rough time of day cause i’m very open to this. In my mind i was thinking, “ooh it would be nice if it was dark and i can light a candle….” but i’m also up for daytime and slot it into the day, cause i’m really into the idea that we don’t have to conform to ways of doing things, just because we’ve got something in our heads, inserting rituals into the everyday, cause that’s the magic, i think, of how we honour these moments in our lives and make them accessible and meaningful.
So feel welcome to vote and leave a comment (a comment would be super helpful as it helps me with accountability and i want to meet you there!)
🎟 Treats + resources 💝
✨ This is the part you might imagine stepping through the disco curtains into the subscribers portal ✨ what a thrill!